Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Things, I think...

will get better. And there's tango, tango, tango this weekend.

Monday, August 8, 2011

This Mercury Retrograde BLOWS.

Or at least that's the explanation everyone's giving me for the chaos surrounding me everywhere I turn. And not just me, personally, but in the whole world. The last few days have honestly just been wretched. The few moments of joy I experienced were fleeting. I feel sad, used up and exhausted. I feel like crying all the time. And then there's the drought...

If my life were a cartoon, I would order one of those Acme black holes like in Bugs Bunny or Roadrunner and just go down it and pull it in after me for a few days.

I need to get my equilibrium back.

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Oh, you tango men.

What you do to me sometimes.

Saturday, July 9, 2011

There seems to be a Chaos card...

in play these days in the Universe.

Friday, July 1, 2011

Out of the Past


I haven't been here for a long, long time. I almost thought I had forgotten the password. I never feel much like giving out anything lately. And I have been very, very busy dancing the tango, performing, having love affairs and making all the assorted art I make -- when I'm not working.

And today
, like a stray bullet, from out of the past comes my amour fou from 2008 with all his normal dark cloud of drama and crazy. Seems he's got legal problems now as a result of the love affair he embarked on after ours. And the opposing party is gathering evidence against him to "assassinate his character" in a lawsuit. No, I don't make this stuff up. Yes, my life is like a movie.

Do I f
eel anything? No. Not pity, not concern, not compassion, nothing. I thought I'd preserve happy memories of some of our time together eventually. Nope. There's nothing there now. Nothing at all. He bled me dry, abandoned me, and now I do not care at all what happens to him. Sounds like he's racked up some kind of karmic debt and now he's being asked to pay the bill. My heart is rattlingly empty of him.

Lif
e is so sad like this -- how things changed so radically in exactly three years. Cue Umbrellas of Cherbourg. Once I thought I would die without him. And now I cannot even imagine why I ever loved him. But I am so glad I dodged the bullet of committing myself to him. And he couldn't even dance.

I should hav
e told the lawyer all I care about is that they cast Madonna to play me in the movie about all this. :)